The search for Absolution.

Moving.

2010-11-13T01:40:00.002+08:00

I've now moved on to greener pastures.

www.putyourfaithinalatenightshow.tumblr.com

My new address.

Goodbye blogspot, you were always so good to me.

Lets set this off right.

2010-10-16T20:50:00.003+08:00

I didn't think that I would've finished first semester so fast!
At least I get to enjoy these two weeks of not worrying about assignments. Though, I do have to land a job pronto. I'll probably just end up walking around the city handing in my CV to as many shops as I can find.

It's getting a lot harder for me to blog. Maybe I need a change of scenery (tumblr?..).

I wonder how everyone is doing across the world. I wish I could have a barbecue with everyone I've met over the years. Some food, beers and sweet tunes.

One day..

The rumours of my demise have been greatly exaggerated.

2010-09-09T21:23:00.003+08:00

Holy shit! It has been AAAAGGGEESSSS since my last post.
I just haven't felt like I need to update because frankly, I can't be fucked. Tonight is the night that I dust the cobwebs that have accumulated in my blog.

Jed Jones. My man, I know wherever you are, you're doing well. I'm sorry I couldn't be there for your funeral. Some of my greatest and fondest memories, have included you buddy. I've had many first experiences with you, we've hung out since kindergarten. Brunei won't be the same without you, I can guarantee you that. Whenever I'm back in Brunei, I will make sure to honor your memory in my own way. There will always be an empty seat at my table outside of my house for you. We will all miss you, but never forget you.

"Prayin hard for better days, promise to hold on
Me and my dawgs ain't have a choice but to roll on
We found a family spot to kick it
Where we can drink liquor and no one bickers over trick shit
A spot where we can smoke in peace, and even though we G's
We still visualize places, that we can roll in peace
And in my mind's eye I see this place, the players go in fast
I got a spot for us all, so we can ball, at thug's mansion"

Cause one day we'll all be together, sippin heavnly champagne
What angels saw, with golden wings in thug's mansion

- Thugz Mansion, Tupac.

Have fun up there my man.

This is well out of town..

2010-06-25T23:45:00.002+08:00

2010-06-25T09:56:00.000+08:00

Risking their lives for the truth..

2010-06-23T18:37:00.002+08:00

Brunei, I really do miss you...

Anna and I have been down with a Virus for the last week, such a pain in the ass!

I've finally recovered with a runny nose, but Anna's now got the beginnings of what appears to be Bronchitis. She's up in the mountains with her family, so at least I know she's in good hands. Still, the bed is awfully cold without her. Even WITH the electric blanket!

I believe Winter has finally arrived in Melbourne due to what i've seen from the weather forecasts. 14 degrees seems to be highest it's going to get... GREAT. The heater in the apartment might as well be broken, it doesn't warm up the room at all. Stupid, stupid heater. The best thing to do is to have a hot shower when you can't take it anymore. But the ventilation in the bathroom is so shit, you can hardly see anything for the condensation!

Ah it's okay, it won't last forever.

I went into my interview on last Thursday and it wasn't as bad I thought it was going to be. I had Anna with me the first time for the tour, which was really comforting. She was so encouraging and supportive, asking more questions than I was. I really adore this girl...

I haven't heard back yet, and the lady I had the interview with isn't in the office until tomorrow.

Fingers crossed, I'll be starting first semester soon!

Why do I feel like something is going to go wrong?

I AM SO IN LOVE.

2010-05-19T16:30:00.001+08:00

This band is just incredible.

SO IN LOVE.

Let's cut to the chase.

2010-05-14T21:55:00.004+08:00

Lately, a lot of what's been troubling me have been my own silly insecurities.

I've come to realize that there are some things you can't talk to people about. I've learned to take a step back from my problems; evaluate and break them down into smaller, easier to digest pieces. I've got to learn to stop worrying so much. I tend to over think the smallest inadequacies in my life. When it comes down to it, I really don't have anything to complain about.

I've always thought of myself as a free person. However, what is it that makes you free? Is it financial? Is it mental? Or is it the ability to do whatever you want, when you want? More and more.. I feel like life is more about following orders. People say money isn't happiness, but does it not make things easier? So many questions that I wish I knew the answers to. There are plenty of people that give great advice, but is any of it the right advice?

I'm really nervous of what's to come. Actually, i'm fucking terrified.

All my life i've been told there's been an equation, a plan if you will, for that perfect, "house with a picket fence" ending. Go to school, get high grades, go to college, get a degree, get a job, get a house, pay the mortgage, have kids etc...

That's all well and good for the people that decide to do that.

BUT.

What do I do? What happens to my equation? Is my plan of action right? Am I doing the right thing? What the hell is the right thing to do?

Christ. I guess i'll never know. Well.. maybe not never, but not for a while anyway.

Good news though, I've finally got that job interview i've been wanting so long for!

It's on Monday, 1pm at Melbourne Central. Wish me luck?

Truth lies in a Vacation.

2010-05-12T13:04:00.003+08:00

Sleep on it tonight.

I had a fantastic birthday. It was such a great experience being surrounded by your friends, new & old. It was great to see everyone. Good food, chilled music, decent grog and fucking awesome company. Anna baked me an awesome two fucking layer cake, which was chocolate to the max. I couldn't of asked for anything better than a night like that. Seriously.

I wish I had some pictures on my laptop, so I could post some up! Bah, as soon as I do, I promise I'll post them up. I'm sure some of you would be interested, right? Haha!

I'm so sick of not having a job. I just want to make some money damn it!

Soon Hamish, soon.

Man, life here is pretty good. I could see myself settling down here, in fact, I just might do that.

Do it for the Love of Music.

Last dance with Mary Jane..

2010-04-10T22:14:00.001+08:00

Now this guy plays guitar with his feet. Now that's fucking talent right there!

When they got out to stretch their legs..

2010-04-09T14:46:00.002+08:00

I know I haven't written an entry consistently in ages.

Again, I apologise.

It's getting cold here in Melbourne. I think Autumn's rolled around and it rarely gets higher than 21 degrees. I see people in the city wearing thicker clothes, longer pants and frilly scarfs. It's quite a nice feeling. I kind of like the idea of seasons. Something that i'm definitely not used to!

I've applied for a job at a music store in the city called Allen's Music. I've got Marcus to thank for that, he was kind enough to pass on my resume to the manager. I'm still awaiting a call back but hopefully things will work out for the best.

I was also thinking about applying to this event company called "lock & load". I might not get any Audio tech work, but a roadie job would be just as awesome. I just want to start making money.. I've got to try harder though.

Melbourne, will you have me?

Let's hear it for fucking Melbourne!

2010-03-29T16:33:00.002+08:00

Oh my fucking god. I haven't been this blown away by someone's guitar skills in a long time.

Andy Mckee, you suck compared to Justin King.

Watch literally at 1:16 how he slides on both necks. BEAUTIFUL.

Strewn across a blue blanket.

2010-03-17T04:25:00.002+08:00

I found myself thinking about a lot of things tonight.

I was sitting on my porch, smoking a cigarette, pondering where it all goes from here.

Friday is getting closer and I haven't even packed yet. I should really start tomorrow..

I'd be lying if I said I wasn't nervous. I am shit scared. This is it. This is point where I finally get my life in gear. The only thing is that i'm petrified of screwing up. Thinking negatively gets you no where, but I can't help but worry about it.

At least i've got my Annie and the guys there. It'll be tough at first, but so fucking worth it in the end. I know on top of everything else, i'm going to have a lot of fun. I know for a fact that i'm going to be happier mentally in Melbourne than I was in Kuala Lumpur. I won't feel so constricted in my actions and direction.

Most importantly,

I get to see Annie.

I smile every time I look at the clock. Watching the seconds, the minutes and the hours slowly ticking away until my departure. I can't wait to see her. You have no idea how long these days have been for me. As corny as it sounds, days feel like months when i'm away from her. Hmm. I'm so excited.

This is where I should to be going. This is where i'm meant to be going.

I know it.

Here goes my fair thee well.

2010-03-13T13:33:00.004+08:00

It's all set.

My flight has been booked for the 19th of March.

I only have a two hour stop over in singapore airport, which is such a relief. Then an eight hour flight to Melbourne Tullmarine airport.

Gives me enough time to relax, but not too much time to get bored.

That's until I get on the plane..

I'll say that my time in Kuala Lumpur wasn't wasted. Education wise, yeah it was, but when it comes to the friends I made there, definitely something really special. I miss you all so much already. I'm sorry things had to be abrupt. Everything just ended up being like that, it wasn't easy for me to say goodbye to all of you.

I've had some fucking righteous memories. The times I've spent with all of you will never ever be forgotten. Thanks to all of you, i've done a lot of growing up. I hope I haven't been too much of a pain in the ass guys!

This doesn't mean that we won't see each other again right?

We've all got facebook, mobiles, skype, msn. Haha the list goes on! Seems kinda' impossible to fall out of contact.

I love you all so much. You guys have a special place in my heart.

Against the Civil Twilight.

2010-03-10T02:47:00.004+08:00

I apologise for being M.I.A for ages.

Yeah, I haven't been able to think of anything worth writing.

I'm back in Brunei now, yes, and I have just completed and sent my application for a Australian Working Holiday visa. I've decided to move the direction of my future towards Melbourne. To be honest, KL, education-wise, was a fucking waste of time. Useless bureaucratic university. Well I don't mind bureaucracy that much if it's done efficiently. My encounters to do with it in KL were far from efficient.

My plan: To work for a while, make some money, then start a TAFE course. From there, enter into JMC Academy, and enter into their Audio Engineering and Production course.

Let's just hope it all works out, huh?

A toast: to the next step?

***

As of yesterday, the 9th of March, I have been with my beautiful girlfriend Anna for nine months. I can't believe how long it's been already.

I've never felt this way about a girl before. I've never ever felt so sure, so.. certain about someone. You understand me baby, you know what makes me tick. I can't believe you put up with me for this long, I wouldn't even put up with me for that long!

I just want to say, I owe you a lot sweetheart. I've told you things that only you know about me.

I love how first met and how we got along so well, so quickly.

Ah. I'm so in love with you bubba.

My dream girl, I've always seen you around, haven't I?

2010-03-01T13:09:00.001+08:00

Getting back into the routine of blogging..

What do the old people teach us but how to die?

2010-02-12T09:29:00.002+08:00

I'm leaving so soon man.

This seriously blows.

I'm sorry my blogs have been pretty weak recently. I've just been finding it hard to collect my thoughts recently. I think my mind is full of other stuff I need to think about.

I was on the train today and I noticed that there were tons of university students. All going back to continue their courses and I found myself thinking,

"I wanna' be them."

Soon Hamish, soon. All will be settled.

You take such good care of me Annie.

You take my breath away, pretty cliche' right?

I don't care.

Because it's true.

I don't want to leave you baby.

How can I go back to sleeping alone?

I don't need that much space in my bed...

EUREKA!

2010-02-04T08:47:00.003+08:00

I'VE DONE IT!

I've successfully found, Camel Metal or in other words: Camelcore AND Rooster Metal or in other words: "Roostercore".

I thought these videos were absolutely brilliant!

They aren't long videos, give them a watch!

Participants all in Black & White. You enter in full blown Technicolor.

2010-02-02T09:10:00.003+08:00

Anna and I watched, "Law Abiding Citizen" on Saturday.

I gotta' say, it really was a good movie all the way up until the ending.

I would recommend you all to go and watch it, but gouge out your eyes around the last fifteen minutes of the film.

It's been really fucking hot here recently. The weather is strange, it'll be sweltering in the morning and afternoon like 28 - 29 degrees, but then around 9PM the temperature will drop dramatically to about 14 - 18 degrees. Crazy melbourne weather!

So since Anna and David start work in the mornings, I'm all alone in the house to tidy up etc.

When I get hungry, I just usually pull something out of the freezer and eat that. However, yesterday was unusual. I bought these chilli chicken tenders that you just defrost and fry. So I cooked them, put them on a plate and settled into the couch and put some Star Trek on. As I was about to sink my teeth into one, I saw hair. Now, not just one little strand of hair, I saw MANY strands of hair stuck to the batter of my chicken bits. How fucking gross, right?

I came to the conclusion that they must've been packaged like that. Reason being, my hair isn't that long due to my recent shaved head. Anna's is no where near that long and David, well he wasn't in the house or had any contact with my Chicken. Hmm..

I don't wanna go. I don't wanna go. I don't wanna go. Please, I don't wanna go.

What am I going to do without you:

The blades keep spinning.

2010-01-27T11:23:00.002+08:00

My time in Australia is running out.

I've got just less than a month left in this amazing city.

I really, REALLY don't want to go. I've said this again and again, but it's true.

At least I know i'll be back and hopefully sooner than expected.

This weekend should be good. We're hoping to go out and see some live bands in the city, from what i've seen so far, the music scene seems to be thriving here. We haven't had time because David and Annie have work on the weekdays and obviously they've been way too tired to go out. Which is absolutely fine with me, i've just been catching up on my new book that David got me for Christmas:

It is awesome. I recommend you all get yourself a copy!

And she moves so slowly.

2010-01-19T19:11:00.003+08:00

So i'm back in Melbourne once again.

I haven't blogged in a while because I haven't felt the need to update anything!

Reason being is that i've bought myself an antique hand made journal, even down to the pages!

It's nice being back in Melbourne, but I do miss the Blue Mountains. I want to go back soon, I hope Annie takes me back sometime!

David's got back from Brunei and has started work again. Annie's started her job at the bank, i'm happy that she's doing just fine. Even though she's got shitty hours so far, from 8:00AM to 5:00PM, however they're not permanent, they're only this crazy because she's in training at the moment. I hope things get easier for her, my poor thing..

She's asleep now in the bedroom, I know she's exhausted.

She's so beautiful when she's asleep:

And if tonight my soul may find her peace
in sleep, and sink in good oblivion,
and in the morning wake like a new-opened flower
then I have been dipped again in God, and new-created.

Sleep well my Angel.

The Mountain maaaan.

2010-01-07T15:23:00.001+08:00

And it's so beautiful up here man. Seriously.

I will show you what you're missing..

2010-01-06T12:18:00.003+08:00

I'd get a pair..

What are we standing in?

2009-12-30T08:36:00.000+08:00

The long awaited sequel!

End of another year..

2009-12-29T23:46:00.004+08:00

Christmas was awesome.

Good food and good company. What more could you want out of life, right?

The Christmas spirit was definitely there, but it was all of our first time being away from our family on Christmas Day. It had to happen someday, at least we did it all together!

I really do not want to go back to KL. I just want to transfer here immediately, instead of going through another year of bullshit. It's not that my friends there aren't awesome, they are, it's just the whole environment. I won't go into my reasons for why I have a passionate hate for that place, all I know is I need to get out. I'm so happy that a lot of my friends are coming to Australia, it's great.

Melbourne's the perfect place for a young university student. Yet, i'm some what jealous that everyone will be together. It's not fair, then again, how many times have I said that throughout my entire life? I've been trying to look on the positive side of going back to KL.

Yeah. There isn't a positive side.

Hmm.

I'm in this fairytale world, I keep forgetting that I have to leave Australia eventually. I have to say goodbye to her again. Bullshit.

Brillant. Except for T-Pain, I wish death upon him.

The spoof of the video before this, awweeesome.:

It's the most wonderful time, of the year.

2009-12-25T08:21:00.002+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

And like Annie, I refuse to say "happy holidays".

I hope Santa brought you awesome presents and didn't shit underneath your tree!

I don't want the world to see me.

2009-12-23T11:59:00.002+08:00

I've got to say, being with you can't get any better.

I love being able to wake up in the middle of the night and see you sleeping soundly, by my side.

I know we've had our ups and definitely our downs, but what we have is something strong.

I can do anything, just as long as you're next to me.

You're everything that I want to be. <3

In your arms, the world shuts down. Just for a while..

GAH

2009-12-21T20:59:00.003+08:00

Here's the thing about music.

Thanks to the internet, everyone has a fucking opinion.

The thing is, i'm fucking sick of hearing opinions from people who have no actual knowledge on the subject.

I remember one time in college there was a band sound checking. Their drummer was fucking fantastic, but some ignorant fucker decided to say, "man, that drummer sucks".

First of all,

You can't play any instrument, let alone play the drums. So does your opinion matter? No. So shut the fuck up.

Secondly,

Why would you say something like that? Are you trying to impress people? Well. By that statement, you've made yourself look more of a douche bag. Shut the fuck up.

Thirdly,

Can you do any fucking better? Do you know how much fucking balls it takes to get up on stage and perform in front of random people? Yeah. Thought so. Shut the fuck up.

Now, I don't mean to offend anyone by what i'm about to say next, but this is honestly how I feel. I hate you indie kids. I hate you so fucking much. Please, go "choke on your irony" and die. I could really do without your stupid metaphors. I'm sick of these middle class suburban kids trying to be poetic.

FUCK YOU!

If I have to hear another "witty" synth in some electro/indie/punk song I'll fucking shoot myself.

Get out of the way.

2009-12-18T20:00:00.003+08:00

Christmas is just around the corner!

It's been a while since i've celebrated Christmas outside of Brunei. Let alone spending it away from my family. This is the first Christmas i'm going to have away from Ma & Pa. I'm going to miss seeing them on Christmas morning however, i've got great company here to compensate for their absence.

It's going to be Annie, myself, David and Jade. We're planning on having a Christmas BBQ, which I've never had before. Should be fucking good!

There are a lot of people I miss at the moment, but I'm really fucking happy and content on where I am. Being able to be with my girl has been better than I could've ever imagined. Wandering around, experiencing new and intriguing things together. Even when we're just at home together is fantastic.

I'm scared i'm getting too attached to this place, knowing I have to leave eventually. The thing is, I REALLY DON'T WANT TO. I've told myself that it's a good thing, being here for the time I've been given. It gives me something to work towards. It doesn't make it suck any less though..

Selene

2009-12-11T16:41:00.002+08:00

Who says bass guitar isn't beautiful?

And it's starting to feel like home.

2009-12-09T11:47:00.002+08:00

Yeah,

Australia kicks fucking ass.

Haha.

I'm enjoying every single day. I love the fact that we don't need air-conditioning here and you're completely comfortable. Well, so far anyway! We're supposed to be expecting 35 degrees and above. I just wish that it would slowly ease into the temperature rather than just you know, change unexpectedly. Meh.

Guess who's going to go watch Biffy Clyro and Rise Against? Hehe.

Will someone shoot that fucking snake?

2009-12-01T22:12:00.002+08:00

Sorry about the fucking late post guys!

I'm not going to do a video blog just yet, i'm just settling in so i'll get one posted real soon.
Australia is FUCKING awesome man. I can't believe how amazing Melbourne City is. I've wandered the streets with Annie and David quite a few times now and the atmosphere is like nothing I have ever experienced in my life.

The Arts are supported here and everything is so laid back and accepted. People so far here have been far from judgmental and seem like they all mind their own business. I've been to a couple of pubs and I saw a fucking tight jazz/funk fusion band at this club. The food here is also fucking incredible!

This is definitely where I plan to study.

The Third Age.

2009-11-21T12:55:00.002+08:00

Haha. Yeah.

My first video blog guys!

2009-11-20T01:50:00.002+08:00

Decided to do things differently now.

I'm going to do videos from now on, instead of writing long posts.

I don't know, I am not completely sure on the idea but let's just see how it goes? `

I love you.

2009-11-19T11:58:00.002+08:00

I love you baby. <3

Right now, the world just seems too big.

2009-11-17T13:52:00.004+08:00

I only have to wait 3 more days, then i'll be home.

I can't wait. I'm so restless with excitement. I was talking to some of my friends and they're just as anxious to get home as I am. I guess it's different for other people, because their country could be eight hours away or something. Mine's only about two and a half, so there's no problem there for me!

Australia keeps getting closer and closer.

I can't wait you know, it's been about nine years since i've been to Australia. I think?

Mmm. That much closer to seeing little wing... <3

Fuck yeah.

& another

FUCK YEAH.

Ah, the great indoors.

2009-11-15T17:44:00.002+08:00

Yeah, so I have been doing a lot of thinking lately.

It's been a long time since i've done a post, so i'll do one now!

It's really funny, I actually prefer being alone a lot now. Not that I don't love my friends and them being around, but I really enjoy alone time too. I think everyone should have a little alone time now and then, it's healthy. I can't believe it's this close to the end of semester.

Five days, and I will be on a flight back to Brunei. I won't have to see this god forsaken place for at least three months. Plenty of time to recharge the batteries!

I have a lot of people that care about me. My family, my fucking amazing friends and my incredible girlfriend. I owe a lot to each and everyone of you. If I don't show it, I am complete douche bag. I've had great, fantastic times with each and every one of you. I wouldn't be who I am today without you guys.

I read something in my from Star sign (Taurus: The Bull). I think it's pretty accurate:

"The few people they hold dear to them are guarded and protected. Their friends are treated like family and are fiercely loyal."

All of you guys, I will try my best to live up to that.

Hexagram.

2009-11-07T17:07:00.002+08:00

I woke up today feeling so shitty.

I feel asleep pretty late, around 3AM if i'm not mistaken and I got up at around 9AM.

I talked to Annie for a while on Skype and then decided i'd fall back asleep for about an hour around 10:30AM. I intending to only sleep a couple of hours, I woke up at 2PM.

FAIL.

My plans to go to Sungai Wang failed, so it's another night in as usual. I think we'll be going into Kuala Lumpur city tomorrow to pick up some stuff. Hopefully look for some books on Audio Engineering, specifically Studio Acoustics and Signal Flow. We visited the Philharmonic Hall on Thursday, where we were enlightened with the knowledge of being told that Signal Flow and Acoustics, are one of the greatest weapons in a Sound man's arsenal.

I CAN'T WAIT TO GO BACK!

I rock, you roll.

2009-11-06T19:55:00.002+08:00

Uncertainty, steering clear.

2009-11-05T00:16:00.007+08:00

She has waaaaaay too much time on her hands. <3

Have you ever wondered why people can be so shitty?

I mean seriously, sometimes there's no fucking need to be rude. I mean sure, you don't have to like that person, but at least be civil. Right?

I called a Taxi a few days ago to get to college. Now the way it works in KL, is that you call this service called "Sunlight". You give them your number, your present location and your destination. They are then supposed to call you back with the license plate number of your taxi and how long it will be before it will arrive.

Of course, this doesn't always happen. They sometimes forget to call you back and tell you where your taxi is or if it has arrived yet. This, not surprisingly, happened to me. I called back after forty-five minutes and they put me on hold. After about five minutes of being on hold and having to put up with an annoying song, they told me the taxi was downstairs already.

I proceeded to go down to lower ground, where I saw the Taxi. I waved and got in where I received a very angry and condescending lecture from the driver. He started to tell me how I should hurry up, not keep him waiting, saying that I should've come down earlier etc. What a complete asshole. It wasn't my fucking fault. Me, being me, didn't bother to argue back. I just wanted to get class. Assholes!

I got interviewed today about my opinion on the entertainment facilities in Cyberjaya. I replied,

"What entertainment facilities?"

Oh man. Not too long now kids.

I can do shameless too.

2009-11-03T20:42:00.004+08:00

I miss home, can you blame me?

I really haven't got much to blog about at the moment.
Haha, so I'm writing about the fact I can't think of anything to write about.

I just miss Home. I miss family, friends and my baby. As usual!
Not too long now, seriously. It's the 3rd today, the 20th isn't that far away.
It's actually come faster than I anticipated. Which is a FUCKING good thing.

23 days baby. <3

My town, my streets. It gives me peace of mind that can't be beat.

What's left of our flag.

2009-11-01T12:45:00.003+08:00

The most FUCKED up version of Bambi. EVER.
Haha, fucking funny.

Pulpatation.

2009-11-01T11:26:00.002+08:00

And when I think about her,

My heart beats faster.

2009-10-31T15:01:00.001+08:00

And I thought I had it bad.

Watching National Geographic can be the BIGGEST guilt trip.

AWESOME

2009-10-29T17:39:00.000+08:00

Hmm.

2009-10-29T13:46:00.004+08:00

Forgot to tell you guys.

Gavin got me this ashtray when he got back from his Course Trip to Bali.
I swear, the most awkward thing to have when I have people over at the house.

"Hey dude, can you pass me.. the uh.. Penis?"

"Dude, pass me my penis."

"Hey man, dude, where did you get your penis from?"

"Don't drop my penis!"

And the list goes on...

Who's got their claws in you?

2009-10-29T13:33:00.007+08:00

And she takes my breath away.

So far, this week has been pretty much uneventful.
I didn't do anything until last night, where Robin came over and we went for a jam session down in Seri Kembangan. It was pretty good, it had been a while since I had played in a studio. It was good to get some tension released in a positive and constructive way.

So on Friday, it's Halloween. Yay.
I don't know, i've always been told that Halloween is an American thing. Where you go around and trick or treat or whatever, isn't it the Harvest celebration according to Pagan culture? Meh.
I'm gonna' go, haha. I don't want to be stuck at home when everyone goes, it's going to be pretty straight so no booze or anything along those lines. I need to figure something out for a costume, I just don't know what. Something cheap and easy to get... HELP!
If I don't figure it out by tomorrow, I won't bother going.
I'll look like a freak. Oh. The Irony.

I can't wait, it's not long now. Less than a fucking month!
It's going to be fucking awesome.

I hope you know baby, that i'm always thinking about you. You never leave my mind.
Yes, I love you. So much. <3

Don't forget that, okay?

Nostalgia

2009-10-28T13:29:00.003+08:00

MY ALL TIME FUCKING SONG.

I forgot how fucking bad-ass this song is.

No one hears what – what you say
No one is there – there for you
But I’ve got music and I’ve got friends
Both always on my side
Conviction instilled in me
This is what keeps me alive

You don’t know me
Don’t know any of us
Don’t know what this means
Keep your mouth shut

Try and try – to tear me down
Run and run – run your mouth
But it’s you who’s lost
In social ills, lusts and greeds
This is for the outcasts that never fit
This is all that we need

I don’t care what you think of me
I don’t hear what you say
You never had it, you never will
Keep your mouth shut and worry about yourself

Keep your mouth shut

You can't spell slaughter without laughter.

2009-10-26T19:28:00.002+08:00

Now what has been happening in the life of Hamish?

You guessed it: Zilch. Nothing at-fucking-all.
I've just been bogged down with Assignments and I've been budgeting to the max. I can't afford to go out to even watch a movie because of how much it costs to get to a Mall.
Taxi fares in KL are fucking ridiculous!

So as you might have been told, I have switched from factory made cigarettes to rolling my own. I've had many wise-ass comments made at me when I pull out my tobacco, rolling papers and filters. Such comments like,

"Rolling now kah? Broke bro? Hahaha."
or
"Rolling tobacco. Gay issit? Haha."

Yeah, real funny assholes. Haha.
Well it doesn't matter, i'm saving money and apparently it's better for me. Not saying that it's an excuse to keep smoking, but it's one step closer to quitting these limp-dick Cancer sticks.

And I thought of a song for her:

"Your Man"

I don't know why I'm with you
The only right thing I do is get along with you
And days go bye-bye for you but they fly by for me
It's true
I talked to you late last night
You said it wasn't all right but it would be all right
And when you sleep by yourself
You're not alone I'm with you
Oohweooh

[CHORUS]
But you weren't listening when I told you everything
That you need I ain't got
You should be gone by now but you're not

I play guitar all night long
And I know hundreds of songs and I'll just play them all
And even when I get home somehow you're still alone
It's true
I don't know why you're with me
The only reason I see some sort of fetish thing
Some people like to be pleased and
Some like to be teased
Which are you

I tried to warn you but you said just play dead
As long as we stay
True

[CHORUS]
But you weren't listening when I told you everything
That you need I ain't got
You should be gone by now but you're not
But you're not

[INSTRUMENTAL (BELLS)]

[BRIDGE]
Did your head not receive the shape of everything
That you are and I am
I shouldn't be happy as your man

You know that I am

I play guitar all night long
And I know hundreds of songs and I'll just play them all
And when you sleep by yourself
You're not alone I'm with you
As long as we stay true--whoowoowhoowoo whoowhoowhoo--

[CHORUS]

--You weren't listening when I told you everything
That you need I ain't got
You should be gone by now but you're not

But you're not
But you're not
But you're not
But you're not
But you're not

It's true. <3>

The crime solving Cat.

2009-10-24T00:23:00.001+08:00

Some things, just leave you so confused and a little creeped out.

You wouldn't believe.

2009-10-22T17:25:00.001+08:00

HAHA. Oh man. Memories.

Oh and how I love it when people harass gamers online. These two harassing internet nerds, check it ouuuuttttttttttttttttt. Thanks Richie! ;)

These are snakes in paradise.

2009-10-22T11:07:00.003+08:00

Class got canceled today. It isn't so bad, it's a class I have already completed all my assignments for that module anyway, so it should be fine.

There's only about four weeks left of University before I go back to Brunei and then, head off to Australia. I've got to buy some more clothes, because I seem to lose pants all the time. I've also lost a ton of shirts as well. It's a shame, I had loads of shirts that I love to wear and I can't find them ANYWHERE. It's that fucking laundry service, they're fucking useless!

Richard and I have been exploring YouTube a lot this past week.

Haha, the kid's facial expressions and his accent are just hilarious!

The closer it gets to seeing her, the longer it seems to be taking.
It's not fair, why can't I just fast forward until then? Ah well. It'll all be worth it in the end!
Until then, we've always got skype baba. As soon as the 26th of November gets here, i'm going to be so fucking happy.

I wanna' make it with you. <3

I wanna' bring you to MacDonalds with a candle.

2009-10-20T19:22:00.001+08:00

Yeah, again.
Is doing the right thing, really doing the right thing?

It's what i'm fighting for.

2009-10-19T09:35:00.002+08:00

I'm in a weird mood.
It's not bad or good, it's just strange. I'll get over it.

I'm so glad after my reiki session, my body seems to be getting the rest it needs.
When I was in KL before the mid semester break, I was so exhausted every single fucking day.
All I ever wanted to do was sleep and get the rest I would never get. My class is at 2pm today and I woke up at 9am feeling good.

My days are great, don't get me wrong. I just miss her. I mean, i'd love to see her everyday and I need her fucking with me right now. But, some days I notice more that she's not with me. It's not long until I see her, but it's long enough...

Yu Foong has left KL and is apparently going to Australia in a week and a day. I'm so happy for him, yet fucking jealous he gets to go before I do.

She's my butterfly.

Like breathing in sulfur.

2009-10-18T21:47:00.000+08:00

Is doing the right thing, really doing the right thing?

2009-10-17T22:17:00.001+08:00

HAHA. Some kid after the Dentist, stoned on Pain Killers. FUCKING HILARIOUS!

Diwali!

2009-10-17T16:15:00.001+08:00

I love the lyrics to this song.

She starts her new diet, of liquor and dick.
Just like hollywood, but laced in sick.
The sun goes down, and so does she.
The sun goes down, and so does she.

Sold out the love she had left with a cut of the throat.
They surround on her, before she strolls to the moat.
The sun goes down, and so does she.
The sun goes down, and so does she.

Count your fucking blessings!
Come on!

Count your blessings, cause I'm counting every lie.
Count your blessings, cause I'm counting every lie,
Counting every lie.

Christ, I'm asking you for just one thing.
I'm asking you for just one thing.

Eradicate, this disease.

Close your eyes,
Pray for plagues,
Oh Lord cleanse this earth,
And bring upon our doomsday.

Close your eyes,
Pray for plagues,
Clense this earth,
Bring our doomsday.

She starts her new diet, of liquor and dick.
Just like hollywood, but laced in sick.
The sun goes down, and so does she.
The sun goes down, and so does she.

So clap your hands to the sound
Of every first born dying now.
Watch the rivers flow with blood,
Death will stand where life once stood.

So clap your hands to the sound
Of every first born dying now.
Watch the rivers turn to blood,
Death will stand where life once stood.

So clap your hands to the sound
Of every first born dying now.
Watch the rivers turn to blood,
Death will stand where life once stood.

Close your eyes,
Pray for plagues,
Clense this earth, bring our doomsday.

Star light, star bright.

2009-10-16T15:37:00.001+08:00

You couldn't get rid of me, even if you tried.

It's your favorite?

2009-10-12T03:12:00.002+08:00

Yet, i still can't describe how I feel about her in words.
They don't come close to what I want to say to her.
I think I will always tell her how amazing, beautiful she really is.
Big hearted? Pfft. It doesn't even come close to describing how passionate and loving this girl is.

I swear one day, I will show her what she looks like through my eyes.
I'd love to take her to Italy, or France. A beautiful girl, deserves a beautiful country.

I'll make it until the 25th of November. For her? I'll do anything.

Sticks and Stones.

2009-10-11T13:30:00.001+08:00

Coolest thing i've seen on YouTube for a while. This guys improvises this whole song, you should check out his channel. Pretty fucking cool. Love his facial expressions!

How did I end up like this?

2009-10-10T22:08:00.002+08:00

He ate all the coffee beans you threw away.

2009-10-10T17:37:00.002+08:00

Ah, a quiet weekend. There isn't anything quite like it.
I've decided that I wanted to stay home all weekend and I believe its doing me good.
I'm not spending money and on top of that I have time to get all my assignments done.

I was looking around YouTube and I found this really fucking awesome song.
It kind of, describes how I feel about her.
(I know every post has some relation to Annie, but put up with it!)

......Breathe me in......
Torn disbelieving separation
I close my eyes to see you
this is for you, everything I am
this is for you, take it from me
torn disbelieving separation
I close my eyes
but there is no escaping this
this is for you, everything I am
this is for you, take it from me
in your arms in your soul
I will be rejuvenation

CHORUS: Breathe me in, I'm forever
deep within, I'm eternal

I will return to you
I am with you always
And I will never turn away from you

CHORUS

I haven't really had a lot to say in my past blog entries about my life in KL, but there really hasn't been much going on. Which is a good thing!

A constant reminder.

2009-10-08T17:17:00.002+08:00

So I thought to myself, how could she get even more amazing? Well I found more evidence.
She left this waiting for me in my Hotmail inbox.

I fall for you, over & over, my love, my sanctuary, my soulmate.

"Just incase you ever forget.

I deeply, unconditionally, helplessly, flawlessly, intensely, crazily, eternally love you, Hamish Hutchinson.
I will never hurt you. I will never stray. You will never hurt me. You will never stray. We will always be us.
We ARE bestfriends, we ARE soulmates, we ARE forever lovers, we ARE meant to be, we WILL always be together.
We're an epic love story. We have a gorgeous future that I am excited for. We have only a year to wait. I will never change. You will never change. No matter what happens, we will always be us. Even if you started listening to Taylor Swift. I would kick and scream, and try to change your mind. But i would never change my opinion of you, or love you any less.

You have a wonderful life. Great long life friends, who you need to spend time with while you can say I'm going to be by your side forever, they might be miles away. You have amazing parents, willing to do anything to make you happy. You have a beautiful passion for music and you're an amazing musician and its one of the top things i ADORE about you. You're passion. It's beautiful. Don't ever fall out of love with music.

You're an incredible human being. And I'm never letting you go. Ever.

Make me happy? Then be happy. WITH ME. :) Because I'm happy.

My Bubba. I love you. I'll never stop saying it, because it'll never stop being true.

<3 Your Baba."

and she writes it all away.

2009-10-07T12:38:00.002+08:00

This is something Annie wrote for me last night.

I thought it was such a beautiful thing to write. I love this girl..

"I don't know what this is meant to be.. A song.. a poem. I really don't know. But here it is. It's nothing i really want to say. It's simply pieces i've written over a long time, put together. So it's messy, and corny, because it's just words with no backing. But whatever..the rough is better than nothing. I have tunes in my head, that i can't put down because I'm not a musician, but yeah. hahaha. Sorry I'm so gay. I love you.

Part 1.

“Hi, nice to meet you” simple words i could’ve said,

But instead, i turned my head and looked away

because i felt i had nothing good to say

the next time your friends and mine

brought us together at your house for the first time

i spoke my words and you spoke yours

and i was instantly comfortable unlike the time before

next day i was back at your place

and i loved your smile and the expressions on your face

a few laughs and few conversations

i began to be filled with anticipation

I was so aware of your hand next to mine

awkwardly positioned on the dusty ground

I was dying to touch you, where friends shouldn’t touch

I want to tell you with out making a sound

my words came out stupid in riddles and rhymes

but you knew what i meant, every fucking time.

unexpected i directed my attention

talked about you all the time without even knowing

i hesitated thought i was overrated

didn’t see the direction you and i were going

looking back it was obvious

even our friends guessed we were hopeless for each other

if i was mad me and you were crazy,

we’d simply be the sadly undiscovered

Part 2

I remember on your steps, my body between your legs

you kissed me on the head, do you remember what you said?

“Promise me you’ll trust me, because I trust you”

Well baby i gave you all of me, because i trusted you too

I fell in love so fast, i could barely catch my breath

I inhaled all of you, till there was nothing left

I wanted to be yours, and i held your hand with pride

I knew nothing could touch me, if i had you by my side

I drew you close, and shut the door.

Because my world was in my arms, and not out there anymore.

I can’t help but steal your words

Because honestly they’re the most beautiful song i’ve ever heard.

Part 3

I was looking out at the ocean

and i swear to god it seemed smaller today

I tried hard to keep my eyes open

because it meant that you were less further away

My hands were shaking with the bitter cold

they shake even more without yours to hold

the thought clenched up my frail chest

so i guess the walk didn’t put my mind at rest

The internet’s become my greatest friend

knowing there’s always you on the other end

The darkness falls, and it’s hard to breathe

and sometimes the monsters, they come after me

my nights are long and torturous

but i’m holding up well here in my fortress

I cant sleep till you call to say goodnight

and when you do my dreams are filled with light

although your not here i know your mine

and you’ll be glad to know love, my day’s are just fine."

your breath comes quiet and still

2009-10-06T22:03:00.000+08:00

Never was so much owed, to so few.

2009-10-06T18:37:00.002+08:00

My damn.

Living in Cyberia is so good. I never thought i'd feel so comfortable, I for once feel like my room, the apartment, is home.

Would you believe that I did my first ever laundry a few days ago? I know. I was pretty amazed myself. Actually, it's pretty sad. It was a lot more easier than I expected though. Gavin has taken over the job of hanging the laundry, apparently I'm "crap" at it. Haha!

You take me down.

2009-10-04T02:36:00.002+08:00

I've moved out of "The Domain" and have moved in with Gavin and Richard in Cyberia.

It was really awesome of them to let me move in. This new environment has helped me get rid of a lot of excessive baggage. Mental and physical.

There wasn't really anything wrong with Domain apart from the fact that my room was tiny. There was hardly any room to move about. I didn't even have a closet or anything to store my stuff. It was nice coming here and finding there was a big closet, a desk, mirrors etc. I think I feel more at home now knowing that all my stuff is unpacked for once!

Instead of living out of a cardboard box, literally.

So I start classes on Monday. I've been filled with this new vigor. I'm ready to get my head back down into my studies and just get through these few months and a year. It's great to think that I am seeing BABA in November.

(I owe my entire visit to you baba, you're just so incredible.)

Everything seems to be falling into place,

Thanks to you.

"The 25th of November. The day I am whole again."

You walk in, full technicolor.

2009-10-03T13:32:00.005+08:00

"Absence makes the heart grow fonder, but it sure makes the rest of you lonely."

Oh, it's working against me.

2009-10-02T04:00:00.002+08:00

So it's a good feeling being back in KL.

I feel better about things, better about myself, better about the future.

Let's just hope it stays that way!

I miss Brunei. As usual. The remaining Bandarians have been great company and as always, i've got some fond memories to hold onto. Being back in Brunei, i've come to realize that i've just been coming to terms that Brunei, will be different from now on. It'll ALWAYS be home, just, not like before. I just haven't had time to be sad about it, so I think these last couple of days has been an awakening for me.

Baba, I love you. It's three simple words, but the meaning behind them are FAR from simple. I've never felt this way about anyone. YOU (have) changed my life. Baby, we now have some light at the end of our tunnel. All because of you, all of it.

"If I could shrink the world tonight.."

Meet me in outer space, i will you hold close if you're afraid of heights.

2009-09-28T02:10:00.002+08:00

I woke up at 12pm today.

It's the earliest i've ever been up by my own free will, pretty sad I know. I should be getting up a lot earlier than that, blame the late nights!

So I realized today there isn't really much to complain about really. I'm actually REALLY SICK of complaining. I'm even complaining about complaining right now, redundant much?

Meh. Life's actually pretty awesome. I know it is. Apart from being apart from my baba, life isn't so bad. Not that I didn't like life before, it's just i've got such a new perspective things in general.

Starting with Uni, i've only got about a year and a bit left. I've just got to get through it and get out. If I just put my head down and just focus on my studies, the time will fly by. I just gotta' keep motivating myself and luckily I got great friends to see me through.

(And a fucking beautiful girlfriend who is always there for me.<3)

Secondly, I miss you baby. I know I mention you every fucking post but it's true. Long distance sucks, it really does. But let's just take this time apart as a test, a test of us. I love whoever made Skype, a fucking miracle for all long distance relationships. It's not going to be easy, I know that. But when we see each other again, it's going to make all of this worth it.

*****

You make. All of this. Worth it.

Here I come, World!

2009-09-26T20:27:00.003+08:00

I'm in the best mood right now!

I ate some awesome food, I had an awesome reiki session and untop of that..

Life doesn't look so shit anymore. I had the best day today, a fucking fantastic day to say the least.

I've got a loving family, amazing friends and a fucking INCREDIBLE girlfriend.

Goddamn, life looks fucking awesome.

I've just had all of my questions, answered.

NOTHING CAN BRING ME DOWN TODAY.

I owe it all, to this fall.

2009-09-26T01:35:00.002+08:00

Awkward vices.

2009-09-25T03:43:00.003+08:00

I have made my return to the, "abode of peace".

Mustafa was supposed to come aswell, he had bought his ticket and everything. He got rejected at the airport though for not having a visa, so he took a taxi back home. HOW GAY. I couldn't believe it.

I saw the guys tonight, it was nice hearing all the stories and especially catching up with George, that was really good. I hadn't seen that guy in such a long time. No one has changed, which is the way I wanted it. Even though seeing everyone tonight was good, it wasn't the same without you. I miss you babaku. I really do.

"You always seem to find a grain of sugar in the giant salt shaker that is me".

Looks like i'll be just doing some good ol' fashion nothing. HAH.

It's all for you.

2009-09-24T14:49:00.003+08:00

She's alive, in the big city sky.

You're crazy, a douche is at least clean.

2009-09-23T20:21:00.005+08:00

Man, it really blows right now.

As she says, "always look on the bright side", so I will. I tell you, it's not that easy right now. I feel so lonely without her. Mmm, i'm sure it'll pass and i'll get used to the distance. Not too long now, only four months. It's not as bad as it seems.

I hope she gets there safe and sound without any complications. I know she'll be fine in Australia, i'm sure of that. I'm going to miss her warmth in my bed. I won't go into detail, I just need you to know...

I love you baba :) .

I'm going back to Brunei tomorrow night. I'm looking forward to it. HAHA. I always look forward to going home.

Slow.

2009-09-20T05:46:00.002+08:00

This song brings back memories of Summer in KK. Headbanging on an empty road, late at night, outside Danielle's house. Haha!

I can be your (Guitar) hero, baby..

2009-09-19T01:32:00.001+08:00

Watch this video. Enough said. NOW!

Who's the biatch noooooow?

2009-09-18T22:54:00.002+08:00

I have a good weekend to look forward to.

Yu Foong and a few others are coming over and on top of that, David gets in from Brunei late tomorrow night! So nothing really to complain about.

I spent a night at Ed's place, Annie's brother. Of course, Annie was with me. It was really nice of him to give us the Apartment for a night. We were going to stay for two nights, but we changed plans. It was nice having a place to ourselves. We haven't been alone in a really long time so we made the most of it.

We went to Petaling Street for dinner where we enjoyed a great Chinese dinner in the street, while enjoying buskers and people passing by with interesting trinkets.

However, I got a splitting headache last night due to my sore neck muscles. So I passed out pretty early, sorry baba :( . Thanks for looking after me, i'll make it up to you!

The shake before I sleep.

2009-09-17T17:57:00.001+08:00

If only if these supernatural series on TV had endings like this!

I want Mustard, a lot of Mustard.

2009-09-16T00:37:00.000+08:00

It just turned 12 midnight and it's your birthday. I swear, you just got more beautiful.

Yes, I know i'm lame but it's true. I'm sorry I can't get you what you really want, but i'll do anything to make it close to it. I'll be yours for as long as you'll have me. I'd never let anything happen to you or let anyone treat you wrongly.

My babalover. <3

I had fun last night at Rafeh/Annie's birthday party at Rafeh's place. And just to show you what people got up to, here's a picture to give you kind of an idea:

Yes, love was in the air. I never suspected Nick and Mustafa would suit each other so well!

AWW.

Haha!

She frees, my sexuality.

2009-09-15T02:05:00.001+08:00

I can't believe you're mine.

You make the hair on the back of my neck stand, love. <3

Ghosts on the sidewalk.

2009-09-08T19:51:00.000+08:00

I wish there was somewhere I could just go away for a while. Somewhere quiet, with no one around. Some place where I wouldn't be bothered, not for exactly a long time, but just until I wanted to come back to civilization.

Yeah.

So i've been inside my own mind for the last couple of days. I actually look at myself and think i'm pretty pathetic. All i've been doing is being so negative about everything. I've been looking forward to Brunei for ages, the only thing is, no one will be there this time round.

Meh. I think i'll get over it.

I feel a lot better than I did the last few days.

(Thanks for calling me last night baby, it really helped)

It is a wonder of the civilized world.

2009-09-07T23:08:00.000+08:00

He's a farmer and he's fucking Metal!

Check this shit out.

You're carrying a stolen Whale.

2009-09-07T01:26:00.000+08:00

Haha. I never thought there would be a MARIO love song!

It's actually really, really nice. I thought it would be a parody, but actually he incorporates all the Mario Kart game play and puts it into this clever song.

Lyrics:

You be my princess
And I'll be your toad
I'll follow behind you
On rainbow road
Protect you from red shells
Wherever we go
I promise.

No one will touch us
If we pick up a star
And if you spin out
You can ride in my car
When we slide together
We generate sparks
In our wheels and our hearts

The finish line
Is just around the bend
I'll pause this game
So our love will never end
Let's go again

The blue shell is coming
So I'll go ahead
If you hang behind
It'll hit me instead
But never look back
Cause I'm down but not dead
I'll catch up to you

Don't worry about
Bowser or DK
Just eat this glowing mushroom
And they'll all fade away

The finish line
Is just around the bend
I'll pause this game
So our love will never end
Let's go again

The finish line
Is just around the bend
I'll pause this game
So our love will never end
Let's go again

To the mushroom cup
And the flower cup
And the star cup
And the reverse cup

Living is a miracle.

2009-09-06T22:44:00.000+08:00

GAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA.

Man, i'm feeling kinda' bowling ball-ish.

2009-09-06T19:08:00.000+08:00

This is a drum cover of the song "Hummer" by the Foals. This guy nails the drums perfectly. Around 0:56 is great. He really nails that cowbell.

Awesome example of Indie drumming right here.

I was just browsing around YouTube and I found this kid. His name is Sungha Jung and he's an amazing guitarist. I felt so shameful when i watched this video because this kid is already this good, when i'm 18 years old and i'm no where near as good as him.

This is his version of U2's, "here without you". What a absolutely beautiful cover. There's no words, it's just an instrumental. I beg you, watch this video and if you've got a youtube account, subscribe to him.

Props to you little dude!

Tear drops on the fire.

2009-09-04T01:50:00.000+08:00

A fucking AWESOME cover of Teardrops by Massive Attack.

This guy did this video in a elevator in Amsterdam.

WATCH!

Well punk rock shows ain't for me, I prefer downloads for free.

2009-09-04T01:29:00.000+08:00

That's pretty fucked up.

I want to stop everything.

I just want time to stop for a while. I'd love just to be suspended from everything that's going on.

I want to be in a room where I can't hear anything but my own heartbeat.

Just some peace and quiet. I'm never going to get anything close to that at the moment.

I'm starting to get scared of the future. I don't know how i'm going to survive on my own. It's not long now until I will be finished with Limkokwing University of Creative Technology. By November next year, I would of (hopefully) recieved my three year diploma of Sound and Music Technology. Then what? What happens then? Where am I going to go?

I have not even the slightest clue.

Three cheers for short-term planning!

Meeh.

What is that paintbrush for?

2009-09-03T12:59:00.000+08:00

(Watch this video, it's absolutely incredible how he manages to arrange this medley of 32 fucking songs.)

CHECK IT OUT!

I've finally managed to settle things at the Bursary. I managed to find the Head Bursar and sort everything out. Apparently, he's allowed for my registration into this semester while they sort out this problem regarding the cheque. It's absolutley fucking ridiculous. The adminstration is pretty unorganized and untop of that, the people aren't even that helpful. They talk down to you, as if there is no way they can be wrong. Fuckers.

I got up waaaaaaay too early for class today. Today's class is at 3pm, when I got up at 7:30am!

So i'm at home now, relaxing until class starts.

Meeeeh. I watched Bruno last night for the first time. It was.. not what I was expecting. It's a pretty daring movie. I recommend you all give it a watch. Not for the faint hearted!

"You're the reason i'm happy."

I can shine.

2009-09-01T23:02:00.000+08:00

This song is fucking awesome.

Trip-Hop me thinks, but different.

Shall I go first?

2009-08-31T23:40:00.000+08:00

And I miss you.

So yes i'm going to complain about Annie not being here. I can't help it. I feel so fucking down without her. I swear I woke up at least five times last night expecting to see her sleeping soundly next to me. I can't believe she's coming back again. It's awesome. Well, i'm only half looking forward to it. Because after that.. *Sigh*.

I miss the way she burrows her nose into my shoulder when we're lying down.

I watched the 3D movie, "UP" just now with Haz, Richard and Gavin. Surprisingly, there was a 3D glasses version of it, which costed a little extra but was worth it. It was a really good movie, I wasn't expecting how good it turned out to be. The movie's theme is basically about letting go. I won't ruin it though, i'll save the rest for you to find out. There's actually blood in it. That's right, blood.

An Aqueous Transmission.

2009-08-30T22:20:00.000+08:00

So Annie left today.

Yeah, and i guess i'm okay. I miss her already, but at least she's coming back in about Ten Days.

If i'm feeling like this now, I wonder how i'm going to feel when she leaves for Melbourne.

To be honest, I think i'm going to be pretty fucking wrecked. This girl, i've never felt like this about anyone before. It's like i've known her for ages, there was never any awkwardness between us. I've grown so independent on you.

Anna, you're one of the best things that has ever happened to me so far.

I love you.

It's a Merdeka (West Malaysia's Independence Day) here in Kuala Lumpur in a couple of hours. A lot of people will be hitting the street soon in celebration. Even my friends are having a piss up over in Cyberia. I'll be at home, sitting on my couch and surfing the internet. Contemplating what's going to be in tomorrow's headline: Riots? Mass Destruction?

Haha, i'm just joking. But i'm sure they'll be interesting!

I can hear the neighbours already having a good time, the music pumped up. Shouts and laughter. Yeah. This will do me tonight.

"Yeah, so it's pretty dim without you."

You, and the shadow. Are going to help me do that.

2009-08-28T23:48:00.000+08:00

So I got my laptop repaired. That's right. It's fixed.

BOO YAAAAAAAAAAAAH.

You won't ruin my plans this time, dream works.

2009-08-28T01:29:00.000+08:00

Man, now I know Ramley burgers do not agree with me at all.

I've had a weird stomach for a while now. I swear it's all this instant food that all students usually eat. My allowance comes in tomorrow which means:

GROCERY SHOPPING

I can send in my LAPTOP and MOBILE for repair.

"I need somewhere to hang my head,

without your noose."

That's such a douche time traveller thing to say.

2009-08-27T19:21:00.000+08:00

My laptop MUST be FIXED.

I'm going down to Sunway Pyramid to get it looked at. According to Yu Foong, there's a LCD problem. It makes a weird beeping noise whenever I try to turn it on. I hope it isn't a motherboard problem, that means my laptop is completely beyond repair. Basically, I have to get a new one.

FUCKED.

It's light-speed, kid.

2009-08-26T22:26:00.000+08:00

I have my own particular sorrows, loves, delights; and you have yours. But sorrow, gladness, yearning, hope, love, belong to all of us, in all times and in all places. Music is the only means whereby we feel these emotions in their universality. ~H.A. Overstreet

So i'm sorry you're always on my mind.

2009-08-26T01:12:00.000+08:00

We're this now.

Shy as fuck. We were this before.

Ever since she's been with me in KL, all we do is lie on the couch together, watch TV or listen to music. Oh and we cook too. But that's all i've really wanted to do. I've just wanted to sit at home and just be with her.

It's funny how the majority of my posts are about her. It's just, that's all that's really been on my mind this entire time. Anna Chamberlain, you are an amazing person. We haven't been together for very long, but we've been "together" for ages. I love you. So much.

Being back in KL is great though. It's good to see the ol' gang again! Kiki, Veen, Mustafa, Gaby, Rafeh etc. I have this whole new vibe towards Kuala Lumpur now. I'm so much happier, comfortable, physically AND emotionally rested. Even though she will be going, I know things will be okay.

I miss Brunei still though. Goddamn, I really fucking do. Won't be long 'till i'm back though, back home again. I miss my parents. My house. My dog.

I've got to study hard this semester. I really do. They've messed up my bursary and registration. Haha. Typical.

"Sleeping in my bed won't be the same."

They say it keeps you young.

2009-08-20T03:08:00.000+08:00

"We were watching TV together on the couch.

She was lying on my lap, looking up at me.

She pursed her lips and said, 'kiss me'.

I looked down at her, I said 'I can't bend my back that far'.

She smiled. She said, "yes you can."

So I bent in, thinking I was definitely NOT going to make it.

She lifted up her head, so she met me midway.

We kissed. The rush, it was familiar from the first time our lips met.

She said, 'I'll always meet you half way.' "

You never cease to amaze me. <3

A dimly lit staircase, laughter and cigarette smoke.

2009-08-16T04:23:00.001+08:00

So I haven't written a proper post in a while.

This is going to be attempt to get something worth reading,

(well at least my defintion of "worth" haha).

My Summer has been great, but way too short for my liking. I feel like it was only yestrday that I was getting off the plane at Brunei airport. I don't know how i'm going to re-adjust to classes again. I've just got used to the idea of being able to sleep whenever I want and being able to wake up whenever I want. AH WELL at least I was able to enjoy about three months of that, i guess it is time to get back to the real world.

My parent's 35th wedding anniversary party was a few nights ago. I had a really good time and it was nice of Ma & Pa to let me invite my friends aswell. Of course, it ended up with a lot of drunk people. Not a bad thing mind you, it was just a sign that people were having fun. Nice amount of grog and a really nice dinner. There was a lot of food left, so Ma & Pa did the right thing and packed a lot of it up so I could eat it for breakfeast hehe.

This summer is the end of Brunei being Brunei. Not that it will ever change for me, it will ALWAYS be home. It's just, everyone's moving away, starting their own life. Getting jobs, continuing with further education. We're going to be separated all of the world, UK, Australia, KL. At least with today's communication, it's really fucking hard to get out of contact with friends. Annie's going to Australia shortly after her stay with me in KL, so i'll be visiting Melbourne as much I can so I can see her and David.

So long Brunei. To every moment that's made me laugh, to every person that's made me smile. I owe who I am, who I will be, to this place.

So i'm thinking of the ocean..

2009-08-14T16:45:00.000+08:00

I was on YouTube today and I stumbled upon this video.
It's a song called, "Ocean" by The John Butler Trio. It's just him with his 12-string guitar, there's no vocals it's just an instrumental and what's even better is that it's live.

A beautiful piece of music, give it a watch!